Musings

I keep coming back to this thing. The internet is a noisy place and the last thing I want to do is add to the noise, but there are things I want to say. I think I've refrained from writing here much because I don't want to say things that'll hurt someone's feelings. But maybe it's worth it? Maybe I should just say what I think should be said and whatever happens, happens?? Shaking my head. I don't even know if I'll ever finish and post this one. 

I love that I named it "Burn It, Build It."  At the time, I was just looking for a catchy name and it was the theme of a song by Thrice called The Arsonist: 

We will burn it down and build it again

What was buried in flame

Burn it down and build it again from the bricks that remain

This is what's happened with my faith and general worldview. It's been burned down and built again. The burning process has happened over a few years and it's been tough. I internalize most things and am not good at in-person conversations, so it's a process I've largely undertaken on my own. I have tons of conversations in my head. Words that will never be said, although there's a lot I want to say. 

I'm very careful with how I word things. I work in sales and I'm extremely conscious of wording that sets expectations correctly. If there's a solid chance I can't deliver something, I won't give the expectations that I can. Customers don't love it, but they also know they're getting the truth from me. How's that for sales tactics? Meh.

Sooooo maybe I'll just write some. For what it's worth...all but the last paragraph of this post was written back in June, abandoned and forgotten until now.